February 16th, 2003


phones = off

I get a call... number's not in my phone, and I almost don't answer it, but...


"um, CM? this is X from Y project."

"uh huh."

"um, we're having a problem with Y and Z and Q and we don't have anyone who can open a ticket... could you open a ticket for us?"

"*sigh* what does it need to say?"

"um, blah... um, blah blah... etc. oh and btw, we're still working on the stuff from fri that we were supposed to have done by 6 fri night. are you on call?"

"no, I'm not on call."

"um, well... we should be ready to test tomorrow sometime."

"uh huh, I'll email you the ticket number *click*"

So, phones going off. Schedule shows earliest time as 1pm, so I should be able to sleep in with no worries.

I will escape this work crap somehow.
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I'm up... no vm... guess that means they're still trying to get their shit together.

Prolly have to do it Mon instead.

I was inputting another batch of CDs into Readerware last night before I crashed... and the damn machine locked up, so I turned it off. Not sure if my DB is gone or anything, I just went to bed.. Not sure I wanna deal with that today. I did manage to get all the books I scanned and the first couple batches of CDs into my online stuff db, but still need to clean all that up and manually link authors, artists, etc.

So I guess I'll do laundry and veg all day... Do dinner sometimr, and catch Adult Swim or something.
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Looks like I missed the work I'd been expecting all weekend. Huh, that's pretty amusing. I checked my work email, and there was nothing indicating it was gonna happen today at all.

Kinda funny that I decided to go out for a bit and didn't take my phone.... And they called soon after. Coworker took care of it. I feel a little bad that they had to do it, but oh well... By the time I got the message and logged on, it was over.

Guess I'll just resume vegging and such.
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    indifferent indifferent


ok, well... there's something missing in life for me lately. Personal time is the least of it, since the little personal time I've had has been mostly pissed away doing nothing except mindlessly wasting time.

It's the fun, the adventure, the surprises... Those things which make it all worthwhile. What's the point in me simply "having a job" that causes great amounts of undue stress and loss of sleep if I can't take advantage of the money I make? If I can't enjoy the little time I do have off? If I'm too tired and moody to spend time with friends?

I miss the road trips we used to take. The infamous one with RedneckNinja and Oz in particular - I just don't do that anymore. I'm no longer able to act impulsively like that. To blow cash on stupid shit. To enjoy life without worrying overly much about consequences.

I never was THAT immature, but it seems I've lost everything I did have in that direction. I am not happy. I am not having fun. I do not like who and where I am in life. I do not know what I can do to remedy the situation.

I'm tempted to perform the ultimate impulsiveness again - to quit work, store my stuff, and go live with RedneckNinja, Oz, etc off and on for awhile. It's what I sort of did a few years back, only at that time I was able to mooch off the rents. Not so now. But there are things like rent and mail and car payments to worry about. I don't have the big cushion I had last time.

And, tho I hate to admit it, I'm lonely. I simply don't make the effort to have enough friends around to do things with on a whim - they're all busy with their own lives most of the time. Intention and follow through are two different things, and it seems that it's lacking on all sides.

Perhaps I'm just being brittle, that events have gotten me down again so I'm just speaking from a low point. Hard to say, really. I know myself better than anyone else, and even I have a hard time figuring things out. I'm an independent person most of the time, but I need those bouts of closeness from time to time with others to keep going. It's been too frequent of late for any one person to handle.

So much for a thoughful, organized entry. More of a stream of consciousness than I intended. Bah.
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    pessimistic pessimistic

hilarity ensues

Inside the Actor's Studio with the cast of The Simpsons was great.

in other news, someone from work called... wanted to know coworker's number for some reason, so I gave it to them... phones off now, I think... just in case.
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    amused amused