if I asked you to kill me... would you? could you?
could you really stare lovingly into my eyes as the axe fell? could you be there holding my hand tenderly as you sawed through my wrist? would you kiss me sweetly as the dagger ripped through my flesh?
I want the pain, I need it to know I'm alive to feel before dying
perhaps you'd just wink and smile before pulling the trigger maybe you'd pet my hair as you tightened the noose if only you'd snuggle up to me on the rack
worked today, for the first time in a few weeks. It wasn't too bad, really. I had enough to do, so I kept busy. Went to Chinese for lunch by myself, then Rodimus came in just as I was leaving. Had a kinda tight schedule, so couldn't stay.
Came home to eat, then crashed... Still groggy atm. Cirque behind the scenes series is coming up soon, I'll prolly watch it.
Think it's about time for my 4th meal of the day... *sigh*
I think I've got a touch of something for sure now... Partly why I've been down/sleeping.