December 11th, 2001


from Strawberry

ok, i understand.
i'm not sure what i can tell you...i wasn't dealing well with the long
distance, so i distanced myself...and the more i did that the angrier i
got...until i decided that the best thing for me would be to just cut you
out completely...i know that sounds terrible, but that's how i felt. and i
thought about you all the time, but i didn't want to have anything to do
with you....but then sometimes i would have the urge to talk to
hear your voice, and i wanted to make contact again, until i realized that
that probably wasn't a good idea...
and that's it.
and i decided to try and get in touch with you all of a sudden because i
think i have finally come to terms with things and i felt that i could
talk to you without it bothering me...and so that's why i looked for you...
does that explain what you were confused about?
i'm in a bit of a hurry right now, but i can write more later if you
like...i'm always late, and today is no exception...oh bother.
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    indescribable indescribable

Haha's Call

so Haha called... was wondering where I was... It was like 4:30, so I said.. umm.. at work? evidently they forgot about the time zone change...

Anyway, to the point of the call...

Chichi went to the hospital last night... It seems that there was something seriously wrong... So they finally figured out what it was, and patched it... Has to go to the doc on Fri to remove the patch and figure out how to prevent it in the future... So it was a very late night for them, 4:30am or so before they slept...

Let's see.. what else? Oh the usual inquiry stuff... Asking about the holiday and visiting the relatives with them in Jan... And I've a package on the way tomorrow prolly... Of course I've got all that auction stuff coming in as well - I'm going to have to check the mail more than the once a week I have been doing...

Just sitting and chatting and trying to organize a reply to Strawberry now... I honestly can't get my thoughts in order as to what I want to say...
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    hungry hungry

so yeah

watched some of the hockey game (read: napped) and tried to work out what to do.... didn't happen, I'm still stuck...

Now trying to relax and joke with Tigger, but can't for some reason... Rain and Hunnybee did at least give some feedback, so that was something.... but it comes down to the fact I'm still stuck without knowing what to do.

Won another damn auction... Almost got sniped, but I simply out-sniped them....

forget the future, the present is uncertain
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    hockey game

ahh friends

just spent 2.5 hours on the phone with Tigger... *le sigh*

it was good for me, and I appreciated the gesture immensely... All sorts of stuff and experiences discussed which I really don't have anyone around to chat with about.... It was great, really great...

And to top it off, they sang Amazing Grace for me right there at the end.... nearly had my eyes leaking...
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    (well somewhat)